An Open Letter to the Guy I'm Leaving — You Are Now Free
I'm saying goodbye to the guy:
Hello, my darling! I appreciate you being a part of my life. Thank you for being my light in the darkest of times. Thank you for the "good morning texts," "goodnight texts," "how are you?" and for constantly pushing me to be a better person.
You are a wonderful person.
Thank you for making me happy in such a short time. The feelings with those lovely butterflies in my stomach. The assurances. We once planned our future together. Those are the memories I will cherish for the rest of my life. You did, indeed, brighten my day.
But I don't think I can stay with you any longer. I'm sorry if I have to let you go right now. Sorry for not being able to keep my promise. To remain regardless of the circumstances. I've been working very hard to make this work. But I think I've given up now. I don't want to leave you, but I just can't do it any longer. You were the first to turn your back. I can't stay knowing you're slowly abandoning me. I'm done fighting for your love, your attention, and our relationship. You've demonstrated enough. I'm done fighting. I've already fought hard enough to keep you. I was so focused on saving you that I didn't realize I was losing myself in the process. Enough already.
I must rescue myself.
I realized I couldn't keep fighting for someone who didn't want to be fought for. Perhaps it's time to let you go. Maybe it's time for me to accept that we're no longer on the same path.
I'm letting go of every butterfly I felt whenever your name appeared on my phone. I'm letting go of every sensation I've had whenever I hear your voice. Every time I see your deep and captivating eyes, I let go of this overwhelming feeling.
I'm saying farewell to the sweet good mornings and goodnights. I'm letting go of my shyness. At 2 a.m., I'm letting go of these never-ending thoughts.
I'm getting rid of the notion of us. Every single daydream...
I'm letting go of the future I imagined for you. I'm getting rid of every song that makes me think of you. I'm getting rid of all the letters I've written over the course of hours or even days. Just trying to put my feelings into words. I'm saying goodbye to sleepless nights. I'm giving up all hope in my soul.
I'm letting everything go. Every. Single. Time. Thing. I'm letting you go.
Because I realized I was the only one who kept holding on to something that never really mattered.
Don't be concerned about me. Yes, it will be difficult. You see, letting you go is no laughing matter. It's not as simple as 1,2,3. It will almost certainly break my heart even more. Without you, life would be extremely difficult. Because you've become such an integral part of it. And it will most likely take me some time to put everything back together, to be okay, to move forward, and to fall in love again. Perhaps not today. Perhaps not tomorrow. But please know that I will.
But that doesn't mean I'm going to forget about you. I'll always make room in my heart for you. I'll never forget the deeper conversations we had. I'll remember everything with sadness and joy, but always with gratitude. With love, I've let you all go.
You are now liberated.
I wish you happiness, bye.
The girl who has had enough of fighting.