• Saturday, 23 November 2024
Everton star Dele Alli's emotional confession with Gary Neville

Everton star Dele Alli's emotional confession with Gary Neville

On the pitch, Alli was expressive and confident — an artist with the ball at his feet but one with the street-fighting instincts of a boxer who won’t quit.

The former England star, 27, told Gary Neville's YouTube channel The Overlap: "At six I was molested by my mum's friend who was at the house a lot. My mum was an alcoholic."

The Everton footballer opened up about his difficult childhood and how it pushed him to attend a rehab facility in the US.

"I was sent to Africa to learn discipline and then I was sent back.

"At seven I started smoking and then at eight I started selling drugs.

"An older person told me they wouldn't stop a kid on a bike so I'd ride around with my football and underneath I'd have drugs.

"At 11 I was hung off a bridge by a guy from the next estate. A man."

But Alli said his life changed when he was adopted by "an amazing family" at 12 years old.

"I couldn't have asked for better people to do what they done for me," he said.

"If God created people it was them - they were amazing and have helped me a lot."

Alli said his childhood trauma played a part in his decision to enter a rehab facility for six weeks in recent months.

"It got to a point where I was in a bad place, a lot of things had built up.

"We all have emotions and we think the best thing to do sometimes is to just stuff them down and hide them and lock them away but over time they just build up and it gets to a point where we're human and it breaks and it all comes out and I turned to all the wrong things."

He added: "A lot happened when I was younger that I could never understand."

He said going to rehab was the "biggest decision of my life [and] something I was scared to do".

The former Tottenham and England midfielder admitted he was addicted to sleeping tablets and had previously turned to excessive drinking.

"I was caught in a bad cycle, I was relying on things that were doing me harm.

"It's been going on for a long time without me realising it, I was doing [it] to numb the feelings I had - I didn't realise I was doing it for that purpose," he said.

"It's probably a problem not only I have, I think it's going around more than people realise in football."

"I've definitely abused [sleeping tablets] too much. It got really bad at some points and I didn't understand how bad it was but I was never dealing with the root of the problem - when I was growing up, the traumas I had, the feelings I had - I tried to deal with it all by myself," he said.

"I lost myself for a few years."

Alli was a key part of the England squad that reached the semi-finals of the World Cup in 2018 and helped Tottenham reach the Champions League final a year later.

However, he suffered a dip in form and left Spurs to join Everton in February 2022 before going on a loan spell to Turkish side Besiktas last season.

Alli said he considered hanging up his boots three years ago at the age of 24.

"One morning I woke up and I had to go training.

"I was in a bad place. I was literally staring in the mirror and I was asking if I could retire now. At 24. Doing the thing I love.

"For me that was heart-breaking."

The Overlap host Gary Neville said on Twitter the interview was "the most emotional, difficult yet inspirational conversation I've ever had in my life".

The Prince and Princess of Wales also tweeted about Alli's interview with Gary Neville.

The tweet reads: "Brave and inspirational @dele_official. Discussing mental health is not a sign of weakness. Let's keep the conversation going. We're all with you and we wish you the very best."

Alli returned to pre-season training at Everton last week.

An Everton spokesperson said the club "has been supporting Dele in both his return to fitness and overcoming the personal challenges highlighted in his interview with The Overlap".

"Everyone at Everton respects and applauds Dele's bravery to speak about the difficulties he has faced, as well as seek the help required. The physical and mental welfare of all our players is of paramount importance.

"The club takes very seriously its responsibility in protecting the confidentiality of players and staff. Dele will not be conducting any further interviews in relation to his rehabilitation, and we ask that his privacy is respected while he continues his recuperation from injury and receives the full care and support needed for his physical and mental wellbeing."

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